Songs and Seasons

It's funny how certain songs remind you of different seasons in your life. I think in my life this usually happens because I listen to a song or album over and over until I get tired of it. Usually its one that applies to what I am currently going through.

This morning during my quiet time a Kari Jobe song played on my ipod. I've heard it several times since moving from Waco, but this morning it took me back to the times when I would listen to it while getting ready for work, asking God for grace just to make it one more day. And I was reminded once again how much my life has changed in the past 6 months. Sometimes I get so bogged down with what's going on that I forget to be thankful. This has definitely been the best year of my life, even though its had its fair share of trials. But the Lord has met me in the midst of them. He has blessed me abundantly more than I could ask or imagine. He is so good.

As I reflect on my history with the Lord, how could I ever doubt what he's doing in my life? But I still do. Lord, help me have a heart that is full of belief, hope, and trust in you! Thank you that "everything I held is out of my hands, everything you bless is not what I planned, not what I'd seen, not what I dreamed." (The Turning - Learning to Lose cd - my album for the moment).

The wedding site

http://www.preserveatclaytonpond.com/Site/Blank.html

For Ramon

Time Draws Near, Love.

The time draws near, love.
I can feel it in every ounce of my being.
The longing for you does not spread me thinly,
Rather it reaches for you in an endless sort of way.
Not as though it is fast, but continues
To become nearer to you as while there is still nearness to be longed.
What to do with this length?
Yet to ride it as a horse—Gallivanting with grace and beauty
As the enchanted destination
drives the strength of the horse
to narrow the length par come.
What can you see on the horizon?
Does my form approach your encampment?
I cannot see for I am veiled
sum the sun hides my cast vision
for also the path is light for that which carries me.
The sun will set and the moon will dim.
Torches of fire emblazon the hearths of two longing hearts.
We draw near.
I cannot see it.
I can feel it.

REFLECTION TO THE ORIGINAL PROPOSAL

I want to tell a piece of the actual proposal before i go on...November 29

Ramon and I had spent the day together going to Birmingham on a very rainy day. All week he had been planning to take me the botanical gardens or the zoo or somewhere romantic, yet the day turned out to be a rainy one and I wanted to stay dry. So we drove down walked around the mall, met his sister for lunch, and one of my friends at the mall and then headed back to Huntsville for dinner. On the way home we had some serious discussion about the future and some good laughs too. All day Ramon had repeatedly reminded me of how much he loved me in word and deed. In response I was also constantly asking him not to tell me he loved me, until we were engaged as it is hard to guard a heart with words like "I love you". Well, when we got home we decided to watch Lord of Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring and eat some dinner along with some amazing champagne. It was the end to what I had thought to be a perfect day...unbenouced to me (and Ramon too I think), it was about to get even better. At the intermission of the movie though we were both in the kitchen talking and getting some more to eat when Ramon cornered me, looked me in the eyes, and told me how much he loved me. I teased him about leaving if could not stop telling me that without a ring and he inturned teased me about getting on one knee and asking me to be his adonis forever. After a few moments of banter back and forth, I told him the ring could not be in the house since we had looked at rings eariler together; but he recanted that it was in the house and if I wanted it, I could find it with his help. It caught me off guard as I did not even know he had the ring. So I clumpsilly went searching as Ramon gave me hints of hot or cold. I searched everywhere that would have been meaningful, till I finally ended up in front of the luggage he had taken to Atlanta the week before. And there in the front was the box... he had had it for two weeks. I pulled it out, lost it inside and dropped it into his hand as he was now on one knee. He proceeded to tell me how much he loved me, how there was no other girl for him, and that nothing could make him happier than spending this life to eternity with me by his side. So, of course I said yes, and then was speechless for the first time since we began dating. Ramon just kept saying how much he wanted to be with me, make me happy, and never be apart again... "amy, i love you, i want to spend my life with you, and never be apart from you, i want you to wear this ring, and marry me." we both laughed the rest of the night as we sat entwined. i could feel his heart pounding through to mine and it has never stopped.

getting choked up

okay, there are just some things every bride will do when she gets engaged, whether she tells about it or not. i will be bold here an admit to these things, because they become an emotional rite of passage to a little girl's heart who's dreams are about to come true.

the list of bride-to-be-do's:

one is to stare in the mirror at her excited face as she holds up her engagement ring.

two is to have normal, professional, social, and typical conversations as if nothing is different, but using coy opportunistic moments to look at her ring (again) and imagine herself as a bride.

three is to look at it again while she's driving, though this has caused many near and actual accidents to brides all around the country.

four is to tear out hundreds of pages from magazines and meticulously organize them into categories for wedding ideas

five is to sign up for at least 5 bride sites on the net, including the knotsix is to stay up until two am every morning planning her dream wedding

seven is to practice writing her future name all over scrap pieces of paper, I'm thinking Dr. Amy Eloise Myers-Pedoto, maybe not hyphenated, but I love my middle name

eight is to watch Father of the Bride with her dad, though my dad did agree to watch it

nine is to practice marching in with her favorite choices of musicand last but not least,ten is to get choked up at anything in the world that mentions love is eternal and conquers all.